Monday, December 31, 2007

Along these lines- Jess-bon, i just finished laughter in the dark and i need you to dig up your cerbu notes and tell me why i should like it. it's no lolita, no pale fire. i await your lecture.

Sunday, December 30, 2007


I will be checking this out soon.

Jessie is Amazing!

my sister is a brilliant and sensitive reader, who at the perfect moment reminds me why i love books.
she feels the words completely, they are alive to her in a way that i haven't really experienced or allowed myself to experience in a long time.
check out the blog and see for yourself~

Saturday, December 29, 2007

PostChristmas.... post-woman...and the everpresent General Malaise

news from the frontlines of the army of General Malaise...i'm suddenly reminded of this banner in the classroom of my math teacher in college that read BEWARE THE GHOST OF MEDIOCRITY. Perhaps that's what i'm fighting here....
so christmas went by rather painlessly though i expected to be flying, not hanging around in brooklyn...
january schedules came out and none of us are flying much at all, maxjet shut down and i'm kinda scared about the future of MY job hence jason suggested i become a post-woman as a backup plan. which strikes me as funny when you think of it like "post-modern." I am what comes after woman. whatever.

just have to get to new years. can't think about any resolutions except to be more aggressive with scheduling. hence having to forgo celebrations nyearseve and instead wake up at god-knows-what hour to be at kennedy at 5, fly to puerto vallarta, pick up some wealthy people and their kids who spent christmas in mexico and shuttle them back to sunny nyc.

in other news, check out my grandfathers manifesto in his blog entitled "determinism and your life." if you try to argue his philosophy he'll just tell you that you don't understand him. none of us do! he travels by greyhound and paints his driveway grey. he is wise.

be well in the new year. make your resolutions but don't be surprised if you forget about them in a week.


Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Edward Hopper

so i caught a minute of a radio show about the edward hopper exhibit that is up at the national gallery in dc.
seemed like an interesting discussion of his work, and definitely made me want to go see nighthawks in person.

however, during the course of a discussion regarding the pursuit of the so-called "american dream," isolation within the city/crowd/noise of modernity,sense of being nowhere and everywhere at once, describing many of my recent thoughts since joining the army of General Malaise--one of the critics said that "loneliness is so overdone."

that made me kinda mad.but by then i was home and could turn off the radio.

Thursday, December 13, 2007

It's been awhile

since i posted anything here or felt like it or had sufficient time. now is a good day since it's raining blocks of ice outside and i have the day off to do as i please which is turning out to be housecleaning and cooking and staring out the window.
"new york is cold but i like where i'm living," no music on clinton street all through the evening because it's just too cold.

i have a few days off in which to slowly lose my mind. i've been combatting this by baking things, and taking them to the few people i can take them to here in brooklyn. not the same, though, as baking moravian cookies this time of year at my grandmothers house in georgia, recipe straight from the little old ladies in winstonsalem, or that first christmas baking with jan (sailboats and umbrellas instead of trees or santaclaus) singing along to the oldies station and making a mess. not like putting up the christmas tree with my mom, pulling out all the old homemade ornaments and the one ornament signed by keith when there's no one in my family named keith, laughing about its possible origin...

so now i'm looking up recipes and baking by myself which is relaxing in a way but definitely a departure from my preferred mode of being in the kitchen. which is, in any case, not "alone."

yesterday we went through differences training for the new aircraft which is affectionately named N756MX. i think. 7 or 9. either way, it's coming to us in a high density configuration and will be that way until june.
here's what this means...
a. i've finally made it to a point in my life where using terms like "high density configuration" and "crosscheck" is normal communication.
b. i've finally made it to a first class airline only to be scheduled to fly charter on one of these planes with 178 seats, economy class, peanuts, styrofoam cups, and trash bags to carry up and down the aisles.
I don't mind this. I need the flight hours this month. i will have the opportunity to briefly touch down in cancun and montego bay (not get off the plane) but will still be there physically for a moment. i will come away from this with an awakened appreciation for what everyone else has to do when they become a flight attendant.
but i'm going to have to brace myself to spend christmas hopping up and down on this plane from a hub of DETROIT (anyone have ANYTHING good to say about detroit?!?) to various cool cities that i won't be able to experience.
i know i'm complaining. i'm just kinda homesick, friendsick, cabinfeverish, bored, etc.
now the ice rain has turned into full blown snowfall. i can't even see any of manhattan through it. it's beautiful but i'm staying in.... when it stops we'll see if there's enough on the ground for a snowman.